I'm so lonley. My boyfriend dumped me because I wouldnt have sex with him, he probably dumped me for my "friend" rebecca. My best friend since childhood has a boyfriend now and he's all she talks about and its sweet but i just want to cry so much cuz now im the lonley one....but i cant i just smile for everyone i see and i act like im fine when im completely dieing on the inside... i just need someone to be here and hold me and tell me they love me and not for them to dump me cuz i want to wait til marriage. Im also just so jealous of everyone, my sister is so much smarter than me and so talented. Im just a shadow of everyone i meet... im not good at drawing or singing or playing the piano. i cant fricken dance for my life so i dont like to go dancing or to parties... i have no friends at all and so when i go to one of my two, TWO, friend's house i cant tell them anything funny that happened between me or a 'friend'. Sometimes i wonder if the world would be better if i was never born... im not suicidal i just am so depressed... and anyone who sees this dont tell me i cheer u up or make u happy cuz i cant i've learned that a lot...